Before my first appointment I was feeling many emotions. So far I have gone to four visits and wanted to just give a brief update on how things have been going so far. I have had many views on my first post sharing about LENS so I decided this may be helpful to some of you that are still considering it or perhaps you too have started treatment and would like to see how others are responding.
Before I tell you about my experience it’s necessary to tell you a bit about my character and who I really am in a sense. I have always been an overly sensitive person. Many times I’ve loved it and many times I have hated it. I get easily aggravated with other people. I am patient in some ways but very impatient other ways. I am jealous sometimes and very insecure. I am also protective. I coach myself daily to be better than I am. I worry a lot and always have. I am an optimist because I’m afraid of what is negative. I love strong and I’m always afraid to loose what I care about. I do not forgive easily. I can’t talk correctly sometimes. I feel I may be the buffet of word salad. I seem to be quite literal instead of sarcastic. I do not like to be in close relationships with others. I tend to form my own opinions. I tend to obsess over thoughts and worries.
I had trauma as a child and that trauma is what made me so interested in LENS therapy. I have learned to embrace my trauma but I still recognize that it formed who I am and how I interact with every person and situation in my life.
I need to say that LENS is not shock therapy. In fact you feel nothing at all. At least no pain. During my first treatment I did have a bit of dizziness and did again on and off for a few days . Nothing too awful. I was advised this is normal sometimes and to drink lots of water. At my first appointment I was able to see a map of my brain. The map shows where there are storms forming in the brain and where your trauma is. My map shows anxiety and depression and I wasn’t surprised about that. I do not take prescription medication for either but I have tried it in the past. I feel this is important to share because some people may be looking for treatment without medication and sometimes some are looking to try to discontinue or lessen their medication. Of course I am not a medical professional and none of my information should be used as advice. I seen that I had a lot of fight or flight activity in my brain and also there was little to no flexibility. Brain flexibility is often associated with the ability to adjust its activity and content, switch between different task rules and corresponding behavioral responses, maintain multiple concepts simultaneously and shift internal attention between them. A flexible brain the way I understand it is like a flexible body. It’s easy to move and easy to adjust to different situations with ease rather that causing stress and strain or simply no flexibility at all. Therefore it’s harder for your brain to switch from one task to another or to respond appropriately when there is little to no flexibility. Our brain waves can say so much to the professionals that know how to interpret them .
After my first two sessions of LENS therapy I had some emotions surface that had been suppressed. They had been tucked away in order to cope. The brain is powerful at protecting us. These emotions that started to surface were memories that were hard to confront but necessary for healing. With those emotions I also had some sadness and anxiety kinda bouncing around but nothing too awful. I began to wonder if I would feel like this every time I had a session. I didn’t like it and was quickly reminded of what that feeling was. Anxiety can be very scary especially when you do not recognize what it is. Sometimes we try to ignore it and it can fester without treatment of some kind. I have treated my anxiety with medication, exercise, a small amount of counseling, meditation, and acupuncture. Before any treatment I suffered from panic attacks as well. Waking up in the middle of the night feeling like I was dying. This is when I realized what anxiety was and I wasn’t in control of it. I started seeking ways to feel better to be stronger and less stressed. This was 15 years ago now and in that time I have learned so much about how to put less on my plate in order to function without feeling overwhelmed. Many times it simply helps to have less noise and less stimulation. I have also learned that those around me play a huge part in my “feelings” therefore I try very hard to stay away from negative people. There is nothing wrong with realizing that people are sometimes toxic.
Each of us has a different level of tolerance and it’s important for us to recognize what we can tolerate in order to be happy. It’s up to us to find coping strategies to continue to grow and be successful. This is why I tried LENS because everyone can benefit from it so why would I not try it? There are some people that do not believe in medication or acupuncture or counseling but I’m curious what they do believe in. If we do not use the healthy tools that we have to be all that we can be what is the answer? Is it ok to just be? Is it possible to go through your entire life and never have the desire to grow as a human. To be content with your insecurities and emotional trauma that can hold you back or keep you awake at night? I personally would not want to be trapped in a place where I had rejected an opportunity to be better than I am. Sometimes people do make that choice and if you find yourself reading this wondering if LENS can help you please ask yourself why not try it? What are you afraid of? To sum it all up, after my third appointment I remember asking “you mean to tell me I am going to feel better than I already do?” And the answer was “yes”. My brain has started to slow down with less overthinking and less worry. I find myself letting things go much easier than before. I am able to see how my brain has helped me survive by using survival mode. I like my brain better when it’s not in survival mode. I am not sure how long I will do LENS therapy but I do know I am already glad I tried it. I have always had an interest in psychology and the brain is an amazing organ that so much of us fail to even attempt to understand. I encourage you to give LENS a try and share your experiences. Help others understand how good it can be. We need to share this information and treatment because it definitely works because I feel it and see it each week I have a session. You can learn more at https://www.renewed-vitality.com/
Thank you for reading!
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